I started becoming attracted to children. Help please!?

I feel ashamed and sick about it and I hate myself because of it. By the way, I am female. I've never done anything to hurt a child, and I never will. I am just tired of the attractions. I've been having them for about a year, and I am in my mid-20s. I need some kind of intervention, but I don't want it to go on my medical record. I want to be a nurse practitioner when I'm out of school, so I don't know what privacy policies are. I'm not just attracted to children either. I'm attracted to normal people and I have some other feelings of sexual deviance. I don't know if I should tell my regular doctor to have my testosterone levels checked for "unwanted thoughts," but I don't want to have to go into detail. I don't know if he will respect me or not. What if I refuse to go into detail? Or would saying "I have sexually deviant thoughts" be okay and would he not have to write anything more down? If things get reported somewhere, I am afraid I have no future, but I don't want to live like this. I want a positive future full of hope and happiness. I am afraid I might not have the future I've wanted. Someone please give me some compassion and good advice. I need to get better.